This past week I met two specific people that got me thinking.
I met someone who swore he was different. "I'm older. I don't play games. That's tired. I just want to be in a relationship." He said all the right things and I caught myself thinking about things I shouldn't think about so soon.
I met someone who swore he was the same. "All guys are the same. I'm just a regular guy. I don't want to be in a relationship." He said all the wrong things and I caught myself thinking about things that would make nuns cry.
Then, something completely amazing happened. 'Mr. Original' ended up being the same and 'Mr. Same' ended up being original.
Original 'John' said all the same bullshit the others do and as much as it's what swooning girls want to hear, it surprisingly was not intellectually, socially or sexually stimulating.
Mr. Same said things I've never heard before and as much as it's what any easily bored girl wants to hear, it was surprisingly intellectually, socially and sexually stimulating.
I have this short attention span. I like TV shows, not movies. I like songs, not symphony's. I like good friends, not best friends forever. I like trysts, not relationships. I like New Year's resolutions, not lifestyle changes. I like blogs, not books. I crave change. I lust difference.
I don't think I believe in love. (Rejoice! Bitter Janna is back!) I don't know anyone on a personal level who has met that one person who completes them in every way. We aren't wooden, prefabricated puzzle pieces. We're human beings with complex DNA. We change, evolve, learn, adapt, build habits, break habits, live and die.
This has led me to believe that everybody is good for something different. Why can't I get laughs from one person, romance from another, sex from a third and intellectual conversations from the last?
Who am I to say I will be the same person in one, two, ten, fifty years? I'll change. You'll change. Some for the better and some for the worse. Sounds familiar. For better or worse. Do I really have to stay with you if you go crazy and murder your father with a shovel? *Flash to wedding day* "I do." *Back to now* "I DO?!' Let's rewrite these vows. Repeat after me:
"I vow to have [my way with] you [when I want to],
to hold you [underwater, if you piss me off],
from this day forward,
for better [grammar] or for worse [judgement],
for richer [intellect] or for poorer [jokes],
in sickness [unless it's mental] and in health [care reform disasters],
[and] for as long as we both shall live [I promise to change.]"
War and Heartache,
Janna
