Boomerang

You have it, hold it, throw it out and it comes back.

If I could describe myself in one word, it's boomerang. That's what I am lately. Well, not the boomerang but the one left there when it spins away.

You aren't consistent. You leave, circle some shit and then you're back. Whether it be a Facebook apology, text message at 5:30 am on Christmas Eve or running into you at a bar again. This shit always comes back around. These same three people always come back when it's easy for them. Step back and realize it means something different to me than it does to you and then choose your next actions wisely. Because I am not putting myself out there to get hurt. I'm there cause I feel it - felt it and thought you did too.

I saw you again. I think you used me again. Should we try this before we give up and move on? And pretend to restore what we have and hold on.